April 4, 2009 from Gene's blog at www.curehd.blogspotcom
Times are bad, but my wife and I have decided to borrow $75,000 to build a pool and fix up the house. It may sound crazy, but when you're faced with a devastating disease like Huntington's, it's important to enjoy life in the now. This is the topic of "In a time of crisis, the best investment of all," my latest entry in my blog. I'm now at the age when my HD-stricken mother started to show symptoms.
In a time of crisis, the best investment of all
The economic crisis threatens to end our leadership of the world's financial system and erode our standard of living. We have borrowed too much on our future, leading other nations to doubt the value of the dollar and sapping resources from investments that could reinvigorate the economy. The export of jobs and factories to China and other countries has weakened our ability to bounce back. The state of California is broke, and the extra taxes of all kinds we're already paying here won't put more than a dent in the deficit.
It's a tough time to raise money to cure a disease - especially a cruel and fatal one such as Huntington's disease, where not a single treatment is available for attacking the root causes.It's an especially harrowing time for me as I approach the tenth anniversary of my positive test for Huntington's and the age at which my mother, who died of HD in 2006, began to show symptoms. Like most other Americans, my wife and I saw the value of our retirement savings plunge by 30 to 50 percent. For the first time in our careers we will not get a raise.
I worry a lot about what will happen if I become symptomatic and lose my job, forcing my wife to carry the full burden of supporting the household and saving for our eight-year-old daughter's college education.
Taking on debt: So what did we do last month? We responded the American way and took on more debt! With the government pushing mortgage rates to historic lows, we decided to refinance ours at a very attractive 4.375 percent - and took out $75,000 to build a swimming pool and fix up the house.We easily qualified for the new loan because we prudently stayed away from extra borrowing during the financial bubble. In fact, we've always played it very conservatively with our money because of my at-risk status.But I'm scared about this new path we're taking. Sometimes I think we are just as crazy as our financially irresponsible leaders in assuming this new debt at the time that my HD risk grows exponentially. In HD gene-positive status means that a person definitely develops the disease.
My wife denies it, but I believe that she wants a pool to substitute for the second child we did not have. Our daughter tested negative for HD while still in the womb, and the prospects of a second round of prenatal (or pre-implantation) testing, coupled with the stresses of my own at-risk situation, kept us from going through another pregnancy.
My wife sees the pool in the back yard, including a spa, as the new focal point for family relaxation and a place to enjoy with friends. Most of all she thinks it will provide fun, exercise, and unforgettable memories for our daughter.
In one of those many episodes of delicate negotiation that make up the everyday reality of marriage, I finally agreed to the pool. (In the deal I am supposed to get some custom bookshelves for my home office to replace the wobbly ones purchased many years ago at a discount outlet.) Like so many of our decisions, we ultimately agreed because we want our daughter to grow up with as many opportunities as possible. She just loves playing in a pool!
As I write these words I can see her laughing and splashing in the water as I stand at the grill preparing dinner and my wife sits in the spa with a glass of wine. It's the kind of picture I use to help me escape reality.
Enjoying the moment: But the daily reminder of my gene-positive status and the memory my mother's death jolt me into the reality of mortality.Life really is short, and every moment that passes is unrecoverable. I do want my wife and daughter to enjoy that pool to the fullest. If we just keep waiting for the "right moment," it could be too late for all of us. My daughter will have grown up, and perhaps I will have become like my mother - speechless and confined to a wheelchair.I also view the pool as a place for me to unwind. Those living at risk for Huntington's are bolstered when stress is lowered. The opportunity to swim more often will also be therapeutic, as we want to install an "endless pool," an underwater jet spray that creates a current against which to stroke.
Despite Huntington's and the bad economic news, life must go on. I'm at risk for HD, and that means our family inevitably ends up taking more risks in other realms of life.
I am striving to live out one of the grand lessons that being at risk has taught me. There are things more important than career and even more important than taking part in the monumental effort to find treatments and a cure for HD. They are the moments I can love my family and leave my daughter with the warm feeling of togetherness and being cared for.
That's the best investment of all.